Nick Cannon seemed to have considered suicide … calling 2020 the most f *** ed up year I’ve ever seen, speaking of his friend who he says committed suicide, adding that he was in “the dark contemplation of continuing my physical existence on this planet”, and admiring his friend who “had the balls to do it”.
It is an alarming message, but not entirely surprising. Nick was called from all sides, it seems, this week after his anti-Semitic comments he made on a podcast, for which he apologized. Although Nick says he tries to educate himself by meeting rabbis and others, he is now under attack for his apologies. On top of that, Viacom kicked him out of “Wild ‘n Out”.
Nick told his friend’s story, Ryan Bowers – a promising rapper that Nick signed with his label – who was gunned down in his home last year by a San Diego cop. Nick says Ryan had been in a coma for months and Nick was by his side. Cannon says his friend fought hard, relearning basic functions like walking.
Nick says that on the surface, Ryan seemed to bounce … back to perform in front of sold-out crowds. But, behind the tackle, Ryan was in pain, whispering to Nick, “Everything still hurts.”
Nick said, “I can’t help but think that if I wasn’t so engulfed in my own *** bulls I could have been there for you when you finally took your life after several attempts. .. F *** that fits !! #CantWin # ForLosing🙏 “.
We checked and the medical examiner told us that a Ryan Bowers died on Saturday.
pseudo said Thursday, “I hurt a whole community and it hurt deep inside me, I thought it couldn’t be worse. Then I watched my own community turn on me and call me to counters closed to apologize, “adding:” Good night. Enjoy the Earth. “